Another dream come true

Hello, I don’t know why but I suddenly have an urge to write again

Hahaha

Been a long time, huh?

Last year was a super roller coaster for me. I’ve been struggling in general, but managed to survive! Nothing well as I planned, but then I realize that everything went as His planned.

I continuously dissatisfied with myself but still so grateful of everything especially for the love I received from so many people, I feel so loved.

Been also taught to be more humble in everything, that there’s always another sky above the sky.. I become a better version of myself thanks to 2018

I failed in so many things last year

Once again

Failed

In

So

Many

Things

I joined a choir audition for Bandung Philharmonic Chorus, then I failed

Next

I joined another audition, PSM’s audition for a competition in Riga, Latvia, then I failed again

Hahahha back then I thought I was pretty good since I started to sing in the choir at my very young age. But from last year I learned that I’m not that good, I have been too selfish to know that there are so many people better than myself.

I was about to give up because I felt that I didn’t know how to deal with it anymore, I didn’t know what to do anymore, I started to question myself, what do I really do? Am I not actually talented enough? And the worst part is; should I stop?

However, positively I became more determined; I became more serious in course, I was practicing at home. One thing I was so thankful is my teacher, my sister (I hope she does not mind me calling her sister) Ci Anggie who is never give up for me, even when myself does. So this year she suggests me to take grade 5 exam, and of course I take this opportunity! I want to be better, I want to be the best version of myself.

me and ci Anggie

me singing

For the ballet, I’m really giving up to be a dancer, to be a real ballerina. I decided to be a ballet teacher. My love for ballet is still there, it will always be there. I got a super bad grade on my Advance 1 even though it's merit, I cried a lot that day. However, one day, a workshop, my younger fellas, and other talented young dancers made me realize that I can’t be a ballerina anymore. 

Therefore, my dream is changing; I WANT TO BE A GREAT BALLET TEACHER. I want to be a good ballet teacher for my student, I want to reduce injuries of their practice, and I want to produce a ballerina, a great one, a happy one.

For this, I’m so happy and grateful with my decision, I have been started to take CBTS Royal Academy of Dance program since last January for my teaching studies, I also teach 6-10 classes in a week yet I still practising for Advance 2 exam so that I can have my ARAD  title.

me as a Giselle :p

My heaviest thing since the beginning; Architecture

Hahahhaha I don’t know why but it always hard if it comes to architecture. Psssst this is a secret. So I was in some architecture consultant before, finished one project without being paid even for a cent. There’s no contract before so I can’t ask for it. This kinda complicated, I can’t write it all here. But one thing for sure, it was so painful, am really about to give up in architecture, my dream drown, my expectation failed.

But thank God, Andre keeps pushing me to do architecture, he support me 247 100%, he always told me that I can also be a great architect and ding dong. I came to ISAYA, I found nadya, ci nepil, gloria, and grace. They are super nice to me, I feel accepted, I feel appreciated. So here I am, still also doing architecture things, happily J

my built architecture work

Last, one of my dream becomes true

Andre was moving to Jakarta, even we’re still not in the same city, we are getting closer, we can meet frequently

and….

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SURPRISE!!!!!

I AM GETTING MARRIED

I am an engaged woman now, I am the bride to be

hahaha here’s the prove.

I’m so happy, excited, nervous, panic, afraid, and grateful at the same time.

For the love of my life; Andre. I can’t wait for the day!! The day I become your wifey :P

I think that’s all.

I hope I will update something more beautiful soon, not just a report like this post hahaha

Thank you for reading, always!