it's okay

well hello
here I am writing
on the corner of one cafe in komplek Mekar Wangi, Q cafe
alone indeed

am goin to have a ballet class actually but i arrived one hour before the class
so i decided to have some mmm hahaha ice chocolate, i want coffee to be cool, but really i can't drink coffee ahahahha
my heart is thumping so fast if i consume that super great drink, and i hate it hahahha

i decided to go here to do my assignment actually
but
hahhahahha
ends up with doing this such rubbish and unnecessary things like this

it's okay is the perfect phrase for me in this time

because i always tell myself that everything is gonna be okay, everything is gonna be alright
it's okay for my studies
it's okay for my condition
it's okay for not having a bf
and it's just okay

actually
hfffft
i have a feeling for someone that i fall in love with for a thousands times

as i said before, it's impossible
it's matter
and it's illogical

oh yes, he's the same person of my earlier post
indeed
i can't open my heart to anyone, is it because of him? i don't really know seriously
and i don't wanna admit it like wtf hahhaha

complicated am I

but i wanna tell you that am not that pathetic, am not that miserable
i'm happy actually
hahahhah
yea, a lil bit empty, but
i don't really care about this things, seriously!

i just write this just because

and I'm hoping

that he ever read this :)